When all you can think about is death and being alone you start to think long and hard you slowly realise you are so alone you aren't happy anymore and death is the only way to go you think there is no hope for you in life no one will ever like you and your life is a complete waste of space.
If I was to die tonight who would actually care?
If I was to cut tonight would you tell me to stop?
If I was to cry tonight would you comfort me?
If I was to stop eating tonight would you force me to eat?
If I was to pass out tonight would you be there to help me?
What if?
I know I can be a handful and annoying, being my friend can be stressful almost depressing. I am sorry!
If I was to die would you be able to at the same as before?
Would you be able to enter my locker?
Would you be able to walk around the school knowing I did the same thing?
Would you be able to sit in the same desk where I sat?
Would you be able to move on?
I am sorry... I am sorry...I am sorry.... I AM SORRY
I'm not good enough, I am sorry I am annoying I am sorry I am ugly I am sorry I am fat I am sorry for everything I have ever done I am sorry for being born.
The way everyone looks at me it makes me feel like I am a huge disappointment to everyone I swear no one can look at me the same way ever again.
I don't know who I am anymore I have got so lost in my own world I have forgotten what it is like to be happy and smiling because you are genuinely happy.
When I die don't cry for me don't worry about me just remember I am in a happy place I am happy now I am in my wonderland I am where I want to be now I am flying high with the butterflies I am finally happy. I am finally genuinely happy.
:'( I just want to go I want to be in my happy place I want to be free of all pain.
Goodnight. </3
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